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best. morning. ever.

no picture today - only because what i am about to tell you cannot be captured on "film."

i got up for the gym again this morning (i made a commitment to myself that i will do that every day this week). once i'd packed everything up in the car, the only thing left to do was dress the kiddo and get him in the car too.

i walked into john's room, singing his wake up song, and stroked his back so he wouldn't be jarred awake. i picked him up and he snuggled up close to me. i laid him down on his changing table, and he stretched out on his stomach as if he was in his bed. i laid my cheek on the table next to him and stroked his back.

john put his arm around my neck to hold me close - i could smell him, warm and sleepy and snuggly. he held on to me and muttered, "love you love you." and he kissed me smack on the lips. then he repeateded it four or five times. "love you love you." kiss. "love you love you." kiss. "love you love you." kiss.

i honestly don't think it could get any better than that to start my morning. it's the first time he ever said "i love you" without being prompted. and he said it over and over again and accompanied it with sweet snuggly warm sleepy kisses. i'm the happiest mom ever.

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