in june 2010, our lives got turned upside down in the best possible way: the birth of our awesome kiddo, john. in october 2013, brother charlie charged into our life to change the status quo again. and june 2016 brought us brother ben to round out our trio.

i'm proud to have "mom" at the top of the list of titles on my resume, but i'm also still a hard-working professional. how does a working mom juggle work and family? ride along with me and see if i can figure it out!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012


refueling the mower. complete with "glug glug" sounds.

yesterday i found myself in a bit of a funk. nothing was wrong that i could identify.  i didn't even feel sad, exactly. i just felt sort of perpetually on the verge of tears. when i find myself off balance like that, i think it's important to examine it, to push on the bruise a little, to taste those tears and see from whence they spring.

so examine i did, and i found at the root of it all my ever-present dichotomy: john's mom works.

i am not sure why this is such a sticky wicket for me. i love my job - both what i do, and the organization and people for whom i do it. i love the opportunities to be creative. i have chosen the right career path, because i find my work truly fulfilling and satisfying and - dare i say it - fun.

but from time to time, i have a spell of wishing i could stay home with john. it makes me sad to think of other people spending so much more time with him than i do. i long to play and teach and learn and run and dance and sing with him all day. i ache to snuggle him down to a nap so i can go take care of other household things. 

and i know it's not pc to say that, and some will say that i should worry that my employer is reading this blog. but the reality is, i AM a mom who works out of the home. we've made a conscious, intentional, directed decision that it's in our family's best interest for me to work. and i'm wholly on-board with that decision, and all that it means for our family today and in the future.

but nothing worth doing is ever easy. so today ... well. i'd rather be home playing basketball with the bug.

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